life has narrowed down to very specific things, examining it has become a bit of a pastime. what i found is that having stuff is stifling, crowded and not at all comfortable. so begins the cleansing…
during this process i have also found out a few things that i have been making every effort to ignore… i am scattered, i am lonely and i am tired.
the opening scene of chapter 2 in Rob Brezsny’s book The Televisionary Oracle cut deep and so i had to acknowledge the loneliness, i live in 450 sq ft room and still lose things so that needs to be addressed and i have been working far too many hours to stay afloat and adrift and haven’t decided if it is worth it.
the only thing that keeps me fully functioning is dance. don’t get me wrong, i love my work and if it wasn’t there i would probably have turned hermit a long time ago. but dance is where my soul flies free.
so tonight brings a new life chapter. dance becomes as important as work and others can use the clothes, dishes, books and stuff that I haven’t used, worn or even looked at for 2 years.
as for the loneliness, that can be fixed later… or not. after getting comfortable in this life again, we will take a look forward.