YAY!

I went to the eye doctor a week or two ago, and I am extremely happy to say that my eyes are very very good. Doc said to keep doing just what I’m doing because my eyes were extremely healthy for my age.

Oddly enough that makes me very very happy and I’m not sure why. I was a little concerned because 10 years ago I was told that I had cataracts so I thought they would probably tell me I needed to get them done and that scares me, because I use my eyes a lot in my work.

In a couple of months it will have been a year since mom passed. I am getting better and sleeping through the night. Still sleeping sitting up on the couch, that weirdness of having a panic attack when I lay down is still there. Should probably give up because I’m stressing about it and that doesn’t help. Rearrange the corner of my living area and use the lazyboy as a chair instead of a bed. Add in a cat tree which will make princess very happy. And then I probably won’t have any problems falling asleep in the chair. Silliness.

I’m starting to get rid of stuff. Mainly because I’m tired of looking at things I haven’t touched in years, they’re still sitting in the bookcases and random corners in my my room gathering dust. All the training programs I designed in binders for a job i haven’t had since 1995. Books that I’ve read so many times that I can quote from them. A collection of cookbooks of all things, and I don’t even have a real kitchen!

I’ll be 70 the end of October and the goal is to get my life back. To be comfortable in my skin, to not have panic attacks, to not be filled with anxiety, to not feel guilty, to be able to just relax and have a good time with my life.

Wish me luck, because I am serious about getting serious! LOL

ciao

janet