on becoming a minimalist…

life has narrowed down to very specific things, examining it has become a bit of a pastime. what i found is that having stuff is stifling, crowded and not at all comfortable. so begins the cleansing…

during this process i have also found out a few things that i have been making every effort to ignore… i am scattered, i am lonely and i am tired.

the opening scene of chapter 2 in Rob Brezsny’s book The Televisionary Oracle cut deep and so i had to acknowledge the loneliness, i live in 450 sq ft room and still lose things so that needs to be addressed and  i have been working far too many hours to stay afloat and adrift and haven’t decided if it is worth it.

the only thing that keeps me fully functioning is dance. don’t get me wrong, i love my work and if it wasn’t there i would probably have turned hermit a long time ago. but dance is where my soul flies free.

so tonight brings a new life chapter. dance becomes as important as work and others can use the clothes, dishes, books and stuff that I haven’t used, worn or even looked at for 2 years.

as for the loneliness, that can be fixed later… or not. after getting comfortable in this life again, we will take a look forward.

j

Notes TO the Universe

every day i get a note from the universe (thanks tut.com!) so today i want to write a note back.
thanks for the day today. besides being full of great people, you really came through when it became apparent that i totally messed up my afternoon evening schedule. between the no shows, trees down from the storm, forgotten clients and slower than usual processing my afternoon has become very easy… all though i am working a bit later than i thought!
so thank you for listening to my rants and general bitchiness and interpreting as a request for help! it has been a pleasure playing in life today…
j
ps… just wanted to let you know the storm is really cool impressive! it has been great watching you work!!!