Month: April 2012

have you ever wondered why we work so hard to get nowhere? do you spend your weekdays constantly moving, creating, thinking and the weekends trying to be someone you’re not? yeah me too… and I am very tired… so I have decided to be just a bit selfish, to stop and think before I say yes and to not take anything personal.  I know… sounds like the four agreements…

depression is an interesting animal… it demands that you crawl in a hole in order to be at peace… yet the very act of following this demand, creates isolation that deepens the depression… mine wears a scowly face (and glasses) and every once in awhile I mentally tickle it under the chin so it will giggle… which puts me in a good mood… which then makes the depression cranky and the fight is on… so then the 5 stages…. isolation, anger, bargaining, back to depression and then acceptance… and this can all be done in a night or two so that you can enjoy the rest of the week… the trick is to acknowledge it  without giving it power… to coldly and clinically walk it, and you, through the 5 stages… only then can you “de-isolate” (new word) and get on with smiling and giggling and enjoying life as it is…    namaste

woke up this morning with the words and melody of a song running through my head… trouble was it wasn’t something I recognized… so after going through it a couple times it turns out that I created it… so now I am trying to remember all the words so I can sing them out loud. I need to keep a notebook by my bed… this has been happening a lot lately… songs, poems, stories and all of it like I am there… does this mean I am crazy? hearing voices? thank goodness it only happens at night… well, and in the shower too… but that’s it!

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