haven’t written in my blog lately because things have been a little sideways. my cat boy was sick so I was taking care of him, he is ever so much better now.
have realized that just because you think someone is “the one” doesn’t mean they really are… especially when they disappear without explanation leaving you to wallow around in the mire, trapped and asking yourself “what did I do wrong?”.
read a little meme not too long ago that said, “be decisive. the streets are littered with flat squirrels that couldn’t make a decision” …or something to that effect, you get the idea.
so i am making a decision… if i am to go it alone i need to be in the healthiest mind set and my world must be made to my liking, not what someone else wants.
does this affect you? probably not. are you interested? probably not. do i care? a little but then i really don’t know you so “what you think of me is none of my business” to quote Shirley Maclaine.
i promise things will lighten up later but rebooting your life takes guts and dirt and scrabbling and being tough and none of those are conducive to a very cheerful conversation so bear with me as i pull myself out of this dark night of the soul… and wasn’t that just too too emo for words?