Restart

how many of our spousal units tell us how to wear our hair? talking with someone today whos partner was upset she was cutting her hair to make it more manageable. she doesn’t use product or curling irons or flat irons, when it is too long she puts it up in rollers and sleeps on it so her idea of easy care is to perm the hell out of it and then soften it with a blow dryer. now my question is why has hair become such a chore? it used to be that hair ( women more than men) was our “crowning glory”. we brushed it regularly, we conditioned and styled and played with it. i have clients who range in age from 30 to 96 who all get their hair done regularly and they make sure it looks nice every morning. what has happened that more and more people either cut it all off short or get a “curly perm” just so they don’t have to bother with it? now i am not talking about the ones with arthritis, shoulder problems, etc.. but the ones who with the extra few minutes it takes, could look fabulous instead of just there. everyday someone asks me why did you dress up?, what’s the occasion? the occasion is i like myself well enough to take a little time and make myself smile when i see myself in the mirror… am i really that fabulous looking? no… i am aging… the body has become thicker and soft even though it is still strong and my skin is “crinkly” ( those of you who have it know). but when i take the time nobody notices that stuff. they think i am vibrant and alive and sexy and beautiful and if they can’t see it then why should i see it? change is certain, it’s how we react to it that’s important. well time to go back to work…

well hell… i am stuck and so is my character.  should be at 5010 words right now… not even close.  anyone got any ideas? never mind… i will just sit down and write whatever comes in my head whether it makes sense or not… maybe that will jiggle something loose!

in the meantime, there is a question i have been meaning to ask… do any of you read this thing?

j

well i have reached 1600 words and still going. it seems rather disjointed but things sort of pop in and the character is nothing like i thought they would be. which is weird but that is how it is turning out. and i may have to change the title. this whole process is so different from doing hair. you start a haircut based on a visual you (and your client) have in your head. the creative challenge is to allow the hair to assert itself and yet stay in the confines of the “style” you have chosen. when you write and try to stay within the ideas of character and plot, it becomes heavy and stilted and boring. but if you let the character do whatever they want, be who they are, it’s kind of like telling the story of a friend of yours because they become the other person in the room. i know… it is weird… but there you go…

Ok just testing this…

lost alot of my peeps so if i am not responding, am not ignoring you… just don’t know where you are! and i can’t figure out if the stuff i post is going anywhere… miss you all but maybe i am just too old for this…

i can feel winter coming… it is grey out and i really don’t want to work anymore… things have slowed up and that scares me… do i need to find another place to live? like a studio? something cheap? am i going to survive this? and why is my heart murmur getting worse… stress probably… okay, enough of the negative crap…

yes, it is all about change… and simplification and learning that i don’t need all the stuff that i think i do… i am writing a book… actually 2 but one won’t get started until november during nanowrimo (nanowrimo.org)… one has been in my head for about 20 years!

i want to put together a dance show next year called the fusion festival; to benefit women who have had or are going through breast cancer… why that? ask me later, am too angry to talk about idiots… anyway, it is a fusion that, to quote a dictionary, is a merging of diverse, distinct, or separate elements into a unified whole… as in the example; the show was a fusion of different styles and culture… so basically that means anything goes… no worrying about whether or not you “fit in”, whether you have a whole room filled with ribbons and trophys or a couple show programs with your name on it to show that you were there, stuck on your bedroom wall… it is all about coming together for ourselves… so the first person to look me up and down with “that look” is going to get an earful… i don’t care if you like or dislike my style, costume, theme, makeup, hair, whatever… i am an artist, so are you… i respect you for what you have done and will even cheer and hoot when you are finished, i expect that same courtesy from you…

okay… off the soapbox… anyway, i really want this festival to be a reality… obviously i have a lot of time on my hands right now! so i guess i will go read a book… or wait… maybe i should update my calendar!!

things are a little strung out in my head… is it hormones? stress? all i want to do is sleep and eat and read…

j

so i am back… and lots of stuff has changed… ocean tribal is really not pertinent anymore but i will keep the name… brings back fond memories. anyway the picture will change soon, the rest will happen slowly.

no longer have a troupe. i dance for myself now and it has allowed me to create much more. will still do competition and i have a duet partner but there is less need to “get radical” on stage. combining elements of old and new styles has been more freeing than you can imagine!

my life outlook has altered as well, and am much more at peace with the world and myself. esoteric stuff i know, but after spending the last year so close to source i have realized that action/reaction, wish/granted, question/answered are what really happens when you live centered in RT.

i am getting rid of stuff and simplifying things and do with less because i really don’t need much. weird! speaking of weird… does anyone realize that the word weird goes against the “i before e” rule? just a random thought.speaking of words… i am writing my novel during the nanowrimo.org month… yeah i know i have said that before but with nothing distracting me after work, this should be the year! wish me luck!

there is the chance, well certainty then, that this post will never get read but here it is…