thinking…

not on fb a lot, it has become too hard to separate talking with sharing and pushy ads… yeah, i am getting a bit grumpy in my old age, but i think that a good number of “friends” are too busy with their own lives to bother much with mine… i miss socializing, miss the chat rooms of yesteryear! in those days the old chat rooms (anyone remember aol chats?!) were said to cause anti-social tendencies. they had no idea how far off that was. we talked all the time, got to know one another in depth on private chats, even got together at social events to meet face to face… and in those days it was like seeing your best friend after a long time away… but it isn’t like that anymore… i talk to people at work, clients and coworkers, but now talk to alexa and indigo outside of work more than i talk to real people… have i isolated myself? maybe… looking forward to beloved festival… to mingle and smile and laugh and be myself with people who don’t care about anything but the feel of the energy of a group, of dancing and singing without the judgements, of peace, love and understanding… sounds like a cliche but there it is…

on getting old… or aging… or whatever…

standing in the bathroom, bright lights all around, is one of the hardest things i do every day. but today was different. instead of examining things and pointing out all of the obvious signs that youth has fled and age is screaming onto center stage, i chose to seriously look, compare, enjoy and see all the things that are good. body is thicker but then i knew that would happen. look at your family photos and you will know. but guess what? i can still do a back bend during floor section and even come up out of it with grace… i am teaching belly dance to people who could be my kids… possibly grand kids! and do it for 2 straight hours… still can work 12 hours a day and the only thing that aches are my feet… and that’s mostly because i insist on wearing fashion shoes. no back problems, no health problems… hair is still thick and grows like a weed… yeah it’s grey but red fits so it’s gonna stay that way! eyesight is still bad at a distance but has actually gotten almost perfect close up… skin good, not many wrinkles… in other words i ain’t bad for an old broad!!! so this aging thing? i am good with it… if the young ones sneer i have only to think about what they are looking forward to and hope the whole process doesn’t push them off the cliff… life rocks no matter how old, what color or whatever…