Eclectic Haze

Author: eclectic haze

  • ch ch changes

    You will see me here more and I will have questions for all of you… links to stuff… existential stuff… thoughts on fashion… hair things ( I do own a salon)… deep shower thoughts… I’m tired of fights on Facebook, pardon me, Meta… the ads and adds… the suggestions… the spying… the aggressiveness and playing for fights… it’s all bs and tired.

    you must excuse me, i have had a rough morning. i’m angry and sad and sometimes lonely and overwhelmed and frozen in this chaos and not getting much done. i will check up on you all from time to time but i think i have to retreat and come to grips with things that have happened recently… but i’m still here and i’m still doing hair… too many “i’s” in this post. have to get off my i horse… 😂

  • stepping back from the abyss…

    As I sit here eating a stunningly sweet dessert cup from pacific sourdough bakery (I was saving it for end of work week celebration tonight), the reptilian/primal brain roaring “WTF ARE YOU DOING? YOU KNOW YOU’RE GOING TO BE SICK IN A FEW MINUTES!”, I think back on the last couple days of indecision and wonder.

    You see, I almost changed my haircolor.

    Not a big deal for most, but my color represents where I am in my life. My happiness gauge, so to speak, and is never based on what anyone else thinks.  The fact that I have been thinking of this change based on a couple of comments from clients, makes me wonder what the difference between a criticism and a belief is… and how quickly I jumped on the criticism wagon, taking to heart what was really a passing thought from someone I was having a conversation with.

    The fact that I even considered the change and was ready to do a fb poll on what color i should be next means it’s time to step back from the abyss of self doubt and ultimately destructive behavior. I am stronger than this, and allowing someone to voice an opinion without taking it personally is a place of strength.

    So I will remain in the spectrum of black/purple/blue because it pleases me.

    And yes, I currently feel a bit sick, but drinking tons of water and a couple of digestive enzyme tablets will help get rid of the sugar.

    I am all good here. Have a fabulous weekend.

  • It’s the little things

    I was a little depressed on Monday. It was raining and I was walking so yeah, I looked like a wet dog.
    Monday is my only day to go to the Post Office, and it was closed. So then I decided to go to the store and do a little shopping, specifically to get Greek yogurt. All they had was low fat, and I despise low fat Greek yogurt. It’s just a thing.
    The gentleman stocking in the back offered to go check if there was any that he could bring out for me. There was nothing. And I have to say, I really felt like crying at that point.
    So I wandered around the store, bought 2 bags of chips and other items that I didn’t need, and walked over to the meat counter.

    There, in all their glory, were 4 packages of lox. REAL lox! Not smoked salmon but REAL LOX! You have no idea what that felt like to find real lox in this area. I have lived here for 23 years after leaving Studio City, CA, where delis were abundant and lox was part of my daily diet. I had only been able to get lox randomly at a big box grocery store 20 minutes away, but I haven’t had a car since 2019.

    Anyway, needless to say, I have been in a fabulous mood ever since.

    That’s my story for the day. Appreciate the little things in life.

  • Discoveries

    After making food for the day (carefully cutting my sandwiches into quarters) and ironing my blue anchor plaid shirt (carefully creasing the sleeves and shoulders with a bit of spray starch), I have now realized why all of my relationships have tanked. 😉

  • Getting organized.

    I don’t type very fast so starting a blog was probably not a good idea. I have decided that now that I have a phone that I can talk to, am going to say a little something every single day. I have no idea what those things will be, but it should be interesting because I really do think up some very weird things and ideas and projects. So… see you tomorrow.

  • Brain click

    It has occurred to me that the reason my legs, back and feet have been in such good health my entire life is completely due to dancing and  teaching dance. Thank you Cory Zamora, my Sensei. Despite working at doing hair for 50 years, broken kneecap last year and turning 67, I am still bendable and walking upright with no back or upper body issues.

    Recently i was having trouble with my heel on the  right due to spending a year of favoring my left leg because of the knee cap thing. A friant (friend/client) told me to “write the alphabet” with my feet as many times a day as i could while working. And it worked! I now get up in the morning (after doing that bit of exercise of course) and am able to walk with much less pain. As an added benefit, my left leg and knee are getting stronger and the knee isn’t swelling up. go me!

    I have decided that aging doesn’t mean growing old… it means growing smarter. Learning and research is what it’s all about. It takes 7 to make a change and 21 to create a habit. I am now in possession of this body and it is my Christmas gift to me so from here on I am taking care of me.

    Wow! That went off the rails didn’t it 😉 the brain click was this morning when I realized that not dancing every day for a year can be detrimental to my health. So there you go… this could have been a very short post. ah well, you know me. Have a great week!

  • It’s early

    It’s 5 o’clock… and it’s cold. Still not adjusted to the time, feel like I’m an hour ahead of everything. Even the princess is still in bed.

    Of course I booked myself really early this morning so it’s time to go get ready for work. Have a fabulous day.

  • you know you’re broken when…

    last night i had a dream of the person i think is the one… who kissed me softly and said “i love you jennifer”… which isn’t my name.

  • it’s early

    my last couple of posts were rather depressing, consequences of a research project that went down the rabbit webhole. so here’s some happy thoughts, at least to me.

    it’s saturday which means it’s the last day of my work week and i have 2 days off. yay me!

    it’s cooler and there’s rain in the forecast next week. yay gaia!

    may not have much but i have what is needed to live… a roof over my head, princess lily and i are getting along great, food, my trike bike, knee is getting stronger, friends and clients overwhelm with their caring and thoughtfulness, clean fresh air, sounds of the ocean, the stray black cat with beautiful golden eyes that princess pretends to hate, the list goes on. yay infinite universe!

    and now it’s time to get ready for work. ciao

  • Does eating right cancel out the damage of chemicals that are now banned in foods we have consumed in the 50s and 60s ?

    After doing research, a lot of it, I can find no evidence that eating right now will do anything to help cancel out the the damage that was done. people born in the fifties and sixties consumed foods and used things that are now known to cause cancer, heart problems, liver damage, etc. Does”eating right” actually help negate the damage already done? Do the changes to our DNA mean that generations after will have those same problems we are dealing with now? Can we truly change the damage?